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He wrapped his arms around me and pulled me close. "You are so special," he said, "Very very special." I laughed. I'm sure he thought it was from embarrassment. It isn't every day I have a man saying stuff like that to me, but in all honesty, my laughter expressed a very different emotion.

It was my way of saying, "you're such a liar."

I still grapple with accepting praise. I still fight with my own self-image. It's just a reality I have to confront daily, if not multiple times a day. I'm perfectly fine with accepting praise for something I've done, but I have a major issue believing people see anything worthwhile in who I am.

It's weird, really, when you stop and think about it. I want to believe that I am worth something as a person, yet I am constantly convincing myself I am not. Oy. We're strange creatures aren't we? Sin has really screwed us up.

I have an issue with being secure. I don't know how to be secure. It's one thing to understand that I can be, but a completely different thing to let go of insecurities and find who I am without those. I don't know how to be defined within the context of security.

Life is not allowed to be ok. I don't know how to function when life is ok.

I find no purpose if I am not solving some crisis or getting to the bottom of some issue. That's my job. It's what I do. It's why I love counseling, why I love math and science, why I am the way I am. The problem is when I make a problem out of everything else. It's like deliberately spilling black in the white just so everything is grey.

I am not allowed to be loveable because I have no clue how to be loveable!

I am not allowed to be forgiven because then I can't be punished for something if I am forgiven.


Apparently, as much as I hate the drama of others, I love creating my own

That thought occurred to me as I reflected on the events of my life over the past couple weeks. I just don't know how to be normal with someone. I don't know how to just hang out. We have to be having a deep meaningful faith discussion or need to be resolving conflict or I have no clue how to act!

The big issue though is, I apply this to my spiritual life. Can you believe that I think sometimes I sin just because I can't grasp the fact that I don't have to?

Let me phrase it a different way. Spiritual life is going great- I'm loving God, growing, finding my way in Him. Then this thought comes along and this thought says,

Something is wrong with everything being right.

And I listen! Why do I do that!?

I say, "Hey! You know what, you're right! Things can't be right here because I'm Jessica and Jessica just doesn't do things right. I screw things up all the time." So what do I do? I sin! Because I apparently think I don't know how to relate to God unless I am sinning.

Weird, isn't it?

It was a hard realization for me. It brought to mind the verse where Paul says, "Do we just keep sinning so we can have more grace?" Apparently, my subconscious answer is "yes!"

But that isn't the true answer. It isn't the answer of freedom. The answer of freedom says, "Of course not, I'm over that. I never want to be in that bondage again. What's the point of being there? What kind of life is that?"

The issue is believing with an active heart knowledge that I can, in fact, make that decision.

See, it's more than just knowing the truth or even believing the truth-- we have to accept the truth --as truth.

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  •   |Registered |2012-04-19 23:09:16 menschin  - How to contact you guys?
    Hello!
    I've just registered myself here on the site.
    I got here after watching a video on youtube interviewing the
    founder and his wife.
    I've been looking for a link to contact you guys, but to my disappointment I found none.
    The forum
    is inaccesible, and there is no address I could write to.
    Sorry for using this comment page to try to reach out for you.

    I'd be grateful if any of you could tell me where or whom I can write to.
    Thank you! (-:

    Mark
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  •   |Registered |2012-04-19 23:09:21 menschin  - How to contact you guys?
    Hello!
    I've just registered myself here on the site.
    I got here after watching a video on youtube interviewing the
    founder and his wife.
    I've been looking for a link to contact you guys, but to my disappointment I found none.
    The forum
    is inaccesible, and there is no address I could write to.
    Sorry for using this comment page to try to reach out for you.

    I'd be grateful if any of you could tell me where or whom I can write to.
    Thank you! (-:

    Mark
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    Reply
  •   |Registered |2012-04-19 23:09:37 menschin  - How to contact you guys?
    Hello!
    I've just registered myself here on the site.
    I got here after watching a video on youtube interviewing the
    founder and his wife.
    I've been looking for a link to contact you guys, but to my disappointment I found none.
    The forum
    is inaccesible, and there is no address I could write to.
    Sorry for using this comment page to try to reach out for you.

    I'd be grateful if any of you could tell me where or whom I can write to.
    Thank you! (-:

    Mark
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  •   |Registered |2012-04-20 11:16:11 Philokalia  - Thank you Jessica
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    I appreciate your openness in expressing your your inner conflict. It takes a great deal of courage to do so. I just
    want to say for now that you have helped me a great deal over the years with your articles. This alone is irrefutable
    evidence of your self worth. I want to write more on the subject but I don't have the time right now. So please look for
    my posts in the future. I hope that I can help. It would do my heart go to help someone who has helped me so much. Your
    in my prayers.
    God bless you Jessica
    Your brother in Christ Pete
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  •   |Registered |2012-04-22 13:08:38 Philokalia
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    I would like to say that your desire to help others and share your faith comes from a good and loving heart. Remember
    that a bad tree cannot produce good fruit.The good that you do comes from the goodness inside of you. I know how you
    feel I have trouble seeing myself as a lovable person. I think the problem stems from the fact that we have hurt
    ourselves in a very deep and intimate way this may be why we see ourselves as being unworthy of being loved intimately.

    However, we must keep in mind that our feelings are not reality. Often, our feelings are nothing more than an
    outgrowth of our own brokenness, and the furthest thing from the truth.

    God Bless you Jessica
    Your brother in Christ
    Pete
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  •   |Registered |2012-04-27 11:33:51 Philokalia  - Hi Jessica
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    I hope that these post are helpful for you and to anyone who reads them know that we are all in this fight together and
    we must do all we can to help each other. I find it helpful to remember that Christ suffered His passion not only that
    our sins may be forgiven, but so we may be healed. Remember the words of Isiah " By His stripes we are healed."
    By this passage and many others in scripture it is plain to see that sin is a sickness of the soul and Jesus is our
    loving and caring physician.
    Now, Is a person who is physically ill unlovable, or unworthy of love? Absolutely not!
    In fact the suffering person is in far greater need of love. The same is true for us who are afflicted by sin. It is
    true that we are responsible for our sins but, we are incapable of healing our selves. We must cooperate with our loving
    physician and accept His healing love, and remember that God gives His love to us directly and through other people.
    God
    Bless You Jessica
    Pete
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  •   |Registered |2012-04-30 19:38:27 csieagleeye  - Hi Pete
    I am glad to say that I have finally found it within myself to not be a part of pornography and the degradation of
    women. It is sad to know that pornography has turned our love and respect for the men and women in our society, no
    matter how pretty they may be into objects for self-gratification. I know from personal experience that the enticement
    of this short lived pleasure does nothing to quench the inner hurt or other negative emotions one may be dealing with at
    the time of temptation. On the contrary, it shows that you as a person promote others to be degraded, filmed, placed in
    a box on a shelf, and sold to the general public, in much the same way as groceries are packaged for our nutritional
    consumption. Not only does pornography damage ourselves, but it shows the pornography industry that what they are doing
    is absolutely fine. Although more damaging and hurtful, the exposition of others in such an intimate way is truly
    disgusting. What ever happened for the sanctity of this act by God? I know that men and women are lured into this
    industry, promised as much sex as they desire. What they do not realize is how damaging this is to their soul, many
    committing suicide, unable to deal with the abuse, hatred, drugs and objectivity that are all to prevalent behind the
    camera...
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  •   |Registered |2012-04-30 19:42:47 csieagleeye  - A question for Pete or anyone else
    Alright, so now that I have my will in the fight against pornography, does anyone have any suggestions in keeping pure?
    I have been trying to say an "Our Father" every time the temptation, or sexual imagery comes into my mind, but
    are there any other tips anyone has? I would really appreciate it!

    Thank you Jessica, and everyone else who has
    shared their personal stories on this site. I am ever so grateful for your insight, and advice, may God bless you and
    help you continue your fight against this horrific demon!

    Your brother in the fight,
    Trevor
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  •   |Registered |2012-05-05 22:58:23 mhartman  - Hey Trevor
    Prayer is always good when dealing with these tempations. I am currently going through a free recovery course at
    www.feedtherightwolf.org. I find this resource extremely beneficial, it goes through various exercises and practices to
    help when impure thoughts arise. It is pretty thorough and touches on a lot of aspects of pornography addiction. It is
    somewhat time consuming, but now that I am determined to quit I will stop at nothing now to get rid of the pronography
    addiction. One thing I learned is don't just stick with one tool, use as many tools as you can. Just because one thing
    has work for someone doesn't mean it will work on you, everyone is different.

    I hope this helps for you or
    anyone.
    God bless,
    Mike
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  •   |Registered |2012-05-09 23:02:03 csieagleeye  - Thanks Mike
    It is encouraging to know that I am not the only one trying to quit this terrible habit. I have tried our father's and
    prayer, which works, but I think this program that you are speaking of may be the answer to my prayers. I am sure that
    you or others like myself have gone from justifying the behavior to being totally against it within the same week. I
    know that I have, and it is time to end this. I appreciate the feedback, sometimes you feel alone in the battle but I
    will be sure to check out this site, now that I am committed to changing my life and ridding myself of this vice. Thank
    you again for suggesting this, good luck with your fight.

    God Bless
    Trevor
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  •   |68.145.67.xxx |2012-05-13 20:00:32 luke christopher birinyi  - good stuff
    I like what your doing. I curious as I am, scout the video streams, just to see what's on there. Rape. Not right,
    government is too powerful and honestly I don't think they really care. Trillionaires see life different. Still though
    in spirit world, you lads will be rewarded. Keep up the good work. One day all porn will be gone so don't worry.
    Remember what it says in the bible about the moon turning orange and the planets being out of line and such stuffs like
    that. Annonymous can help. Slay the dragons head and the world can be more balanced. I think guys drinking out of
    skulls don't care about us at all or the people. The only way is to destroy the sick corrupters or change there way if
    thinking. Luciferians and all that crap toppled in the end. God kept 2/3 of his army. I wish there were more people
    like you guys, more will join. Keep positive.
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  •   |72.22.243.xxx |2012-05-24 22:23:32 Christin  - Wow
    I cannot believe how much this relates to me. Every little thing goes for me, even a bad background. Thanks for writing
    all of this. It's helping my healing process a lot.
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